Oh no!

September 2, 2007

Oh no! Look what you’ve done~!

Only Nepalese ex-servicemen and Gurkha…

August 9, 2007

Just as our Deputy Internal Security Minister announces thisthis happen in the UK…

Fragile Life

August 5, 2007

Two years ago, I lost a childhood friend. Someone with whom I spent most of my time with when we’re in primary school. All my childhood games has him in picture. Bottle caps, panjang galah, guli pitek, guli, micro genius, cards and etc. We used to roam around the neighbourhood in the evening on our bicycle. We also hang around his dad’s shop, stealing things from a nearby sundry shops.

Two years ago, he passed away in a rather unfortunate car accident. It was his 26th birthday yesterday(2 August)…

Talking to my cousin today on my way home, she told me that one of our friend’s dad just passed away two weeks ago. This came as a shock, as the father was very health all these while. My mum confirmed the news when I spoke to her over the phone. He was coughing non-stop, and after a medical check up, found out that he has cancer in his stomach.

It was only recently, and guess when it was detected, it’s already at the late stage.

This brought me back to the memories when my grandaunt passed away, and when my granduncle passed away too. How the words of the Buddha sound so true. Life is impermanent.

I remember way back then, at the funeral, I was thinking when someone dies, whatever you have achieved in your life time does not matter anymore, because you cannot bring it with you after you died.

It often left me wondering what life is all about…

Hazard Light

July 27, 2007

It has been raining in the evening for the past few days. Driving in the rain often reminds me of Mix.fm Traffic Report.

Usually, during raining period, the Traffic Report announcer will advice all drivers not to switch on the hazard light, because it may cause accident. The main purpose of hazard light is of course to warn other drivers that your car is stationary.

Her advice irked me, because I felt that the hazard light is really helpful when it rain cats and dogs. You can hardly see the car in front, even if they switch on the car’s light. However, when the hazard light is blinking, it really helps.

Hazard lights on means the car is stationary. When you see the car in front of you is stationary, will you drive faster to ram into it or will you slow down?

I think hazard lights is really helpful in a lot of situation, especially situation where the visibility is limited.

Sampras vs Federer in Malaysia

July 10, 2007

Two of the all time best tennis player ever will play in an exhibition match in Malaysia, prior to the US$150,000 Malaysian Open tennis tournament. Well, forget about the tournament. I bet the exhibition match is the main pull.

Pistol Pete vs Courier Service Company

Mark your calendar! I’ve blocked mine, and if anyone has any info on getting the tickets to the match, do let me know!!

Date: 22 November 2007

Venue: Stadium Malawati, Shah Alam

I know it’s still long way to go, but I believe all the tennis maddies out there have been waiting this for as long as anyone can think of!

*This was reported in The Star back in May 2007.

Corporate Lesson – Always Save Your Own Ass

July 10, 2007

My colleagues has mentioned this many times to me, but I pay little attention. Perhaps my lackadaisical attitude plays a part. Though it’s rather indirect, but I’ve learned my lesson, a very important corporate lessonv- anything you do, save your own ass first!

The best way to save your own ass is to close down all the possibilities where you will be shot or taken advantage of. Friendship? Well, it definitely not applicable to workplace. Workplace is like a battlefield, a place where you practice tai chi not to improve your health, but to put blame on people.

How I wish that I can sit in a meeting where all issues are finalised, and then you don’t have to do anything, until someone follows up with you. Then what is the purpose of meeting?

My biggest mistakes are conducting discussion without a proper black and white records. This is something that freshies will never understand.

Everyone looks forward to the working world after graduation. Everyone in your company looks like the closest friends you’ll ever get. You even meet your college mates lesser and lesser. You’ll never understand why certain people are such a prick. You have not met them before in your life, and when you meet them at your workplace for the first time, it’s like you’ve owe them something from the past life and they make your life difficult.

Well, it takes time and experience to change into that kind of mindset, which I think I’m turning into. I’m never one to backstab or make enemies without purpose. Hey, serious, I treat some of my colleagues like good friends, but you’ll never know when you’ll be stabbed to save their ass! Though I was indirectly stabbed, it left a rather bad taste in my mouth.

Welcome to the real world…

Ada Cinta – Acha Septriasa & Irwansyah

June 30, 2007

Currently hooked to this song… Ada Cinta, by Acha Septriasa & Irwansyah, from the Indonesian love flick, Love is Cinta. Though I did not watch the movie, but it’s a nice song really.

Acha & Irwansyah – Ada Cinta
Ucapkanlah kasih satu kata yg ku nantikan
sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
mendengar bisikmu

nyanyikanlah kasih senandung kata hatimu
sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini
sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
padahal ia ada
dalam rinai hujan
dalam terang bulan
juga dalam sedu sedan

mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
padahal ia terasa
dalam rindu dendam
hening malam
cinta terasa ada

nyanyikanlah kasih senandung kata hatimu
sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini
sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

High Time to Rock & Roll?

June 13, 2007

I have so many things weighing on my mind that I do not know what to write or how to write. I felt so dissapointed with myself. Beneath my laid back and always-seems-to-be-happy demeanor lies a short-fused, impatient little boy. I do not feel like a 26-year-old. I felt I’m so much younger, immature and irresponsible.

A quick but thorough review of myself revealed an underachieving boy whom has performed way below expectations. An obvious component of an adult seems to be missing. The sense of responsibility. If you ask me, why a person is successful, I will tell you the answer – it’s the sense of responsibility.

I believe that the sense of responsibility is the main core criteria to a lot of successful things, be it a person, an event, a company, a project or etc. It does not matter if you are not that clever, because the sense of responsibility will drive you towards finding the best solution to the problems that you are facing. When you have that sense of responsibility, unknowingly you are taking ownership of whatever you are responsible for and you will not give up until you have find the solution. 

Imagine what you will be able to achieve by having the sense of responsibility. In your work – when given a task, you will get it done immediately. In your family – you work hard to earn more so that you can provide a better life to your family. In your personal life – you are responsible for yourself, and you will only give the best to yourself. You know that your future is in your own hand. And what you are now is not what you are. It is what you were!

It is true because I used to take thing easy with little sense of urgency. Unless, of course it is very important. My lackadaisical behaviour has made me what I am today. I am not that irresponsible, just laid back. Very laid back. But something more serious seems to be holding me back.

A further review of myself unveiled an even greater cause. FEAR. I think I think too much. Yes, I think a lot. I think of all possibilities and I think from all angles. It is good to think from different angles and perspectives, but sometimes thinking too much will lead to hesitation. Procrastination has been one of my unwanted closest friend no thanks to my fear of fear.

Sometimes at work, I fear meeting with the directors or some managers. Well, who’s to blame? These peeps can blow anytime they like on whatever things they don’t like, right or wrong. And most of the time, they expect spectacular results with minimal investments and sacrifications. They want prestige, but refuse to take a lesser profit margin. In the end, the quality is compromised.

The management often failed to look at the smaller pictures. Tiny winy things that will make a big difference. Bak kata pepatah Melayu, kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga. Trust me, a bad apples in your department can cause havoc. Just ask me!

However, my greatest fear is not at work. It’s my life. I want to follow what Que Sera’s mom says – Whatever will be, will be. The future’s not ours to see. How easy it is to just listen to Mother Mary and let it be. But who is not afraid of what cannot be seen? (And I don’t mean ghost!)

I like changes. Changes that leads to improvement. I fear changes. I do not know what is awaiting me ahead. I believe a lot of people are being held back by the fear of uncertainty. Fear of failure. Fear of rejection. Fear of losing. But what is there for me to lose?

I always bears in my mind what Mark Twain once said. Twenty years from now, you will be more dissapointed at things you didn’t do than the ones you did. I do not have to wait 20 years. I had already experienced it when I was younger. Certain things that I was afraid to do, I just don’t do it. But looking back, I’m really glad that I was forced to do certain things that I don’t like to.

How many of you have written a love letter to your parents? Telling them how much you loved them, and you are sorry for all the wrongs you have done? I did! It was one of the activities in a camp in which even the organisers are forced to do it! Damnit. But I’m glad I wrote that letter and it was sent back home before the camp ended. I was also afraid to speak to the girl who has caught my attention. But I’m just glad that I took the plunge that make the first move. We’re friends even till now.

There are more circumstances where I decided to just take the plunge without ever bother to think. There are also a lot of times where I regretted for not taking the gamble. Things that I had in mind, but failed to turn into words or actions.  

Tracie is right about me being in the comfort zone. Feeling safe with where I am now. Perhaps it’s high time to rock and roll. Besides, what is there to lose? Westlife sings that you can’t lose what you never had.

Out of the Blue

June 8, 2007

Is it true that if you keep on chasing something, that something will eludes you?

And when you not bother, that something will rolls itself to you?

It’s like that something will appear at an unexpected time. Like totally out of the blue.

I’m sorry…

May 23, 2007

There is this joke that came to my mind today. It’s about a local girl who accidentally stepped on the toes of a foreigner in a shopping complex. Immediately she apologized to the foreigner. Out of courtesy, the foreigner apologise to her too.

Local girl: I’m sorry.

Foreigner: I’m sorry too.

The local girl got stunned and don’t know what to say… so she said..

Local girl: I’m sorry three.

Now foreigner got blur and ask…

Foreigner: You are sorry for???

Local girl: I’m sorry five…

Foreigner: ……………….